Too Alone

I'm too alone in the world, yet not alone enough to make each hour holy.
I'm too small in the world, yet not small enough to be simply in your presence, like a thing-just as it is.

I want to know my own will and move with it.
And I want, in the hushed moments when the nameless draws near, to be among the wise ones-or alone.

I want to mirror your immensity.
I want never to be too weak or too old to bear the heavy, lurching image of you.

I want to unfold,
Let no place in me hold itself closed,
for where I am closed, I am false.
I want to stay clear in your sight.

--Rainer Maria Rilke

WWFG

Those who know of my new life here in DC often hear about WWFG, which translates to "Weekly Women's Food Gathering." Here's the latest photo op from our goodbye dinner for our beloved Mary (LA girlfriends if any of you need a roomate, Mary's your girl!)

From L to R: Rachel, Kerry, Mary, Christy, me, Karen, Whitney & Amy. Missing are Carmela, Jackie & Jaclyn.

March Madness

Looks like my first-ever attempt at a March Madness was a bust. However, I did discover another way to compete without relying on my own (very lacking) athletic abilities--which is worth the temporary humiliation of being at the bottom of my office pool. Watch out March 2011, I'll be prepared!

And while I'm on the topic,  a shout out to my alma mater, Azusa Pacific University, for being the first NAIA school since 1998 to have both their women's and men's basketball teams in the championship. While we didn't walk away with wins, it was still quite the feat. I couldn't be prouder while reading LA Times' "Azusa Pacific loses, but triumphantly." Go Cougs!

Race to the Top… For What Reasons?

*This blog was written by my colleague, Daniel Lautzenheiser & I and published on AEI's blog The Enterprise.

With the announcement of the Race to Top (RTT) winners expected in early April, many of us in the edu-space have turned our eyes back to the Obama administration’s $4.3 billion education initiative. Today a new report has been released, which takes an in-depth look at the RTT application process to date. Among other concerns, Andy Smarick, an adjunct scholar at the American Enterprise Institute and a former deputy assistant secretary at the Department of Education, worries that “many states were giving the impression that they were competing not because they were deeply committed to reform, but because the recession had decimated their budgets.” Both the rhetoric and the numbers appear to lend credit to such a concern.

Smarick gives several examples in his third report of the Education Stimulus Watch series: New York Governor David Paterson seemed to make his motives clear when he said, “There is a potential $400 to $700 million that can come into this state to help pay off some of these bills. Seven hundred million would be very helpful right now.” Ohio’s—a finalist state with a weak application, notes Smarick—Senator John Husted said, “During these tough and uncertain financial times, I believe it is imperative that Ohio be in a strong position to take advantage of the Race to the Top dollars.” And more overt was Illinois Governor Pat Quinn’s declaration that “we want to get Illinois in that race and make sure we get as much money as possible from Washington.”

In addition to such rhetoric, the numbers seem to raise suspicion. As shown here, 15 of the 16 finalists in the first round of RTT requested more than their maximum recommended amount per guidelines from the Department of Education. Massachusetts, whose budget range was $150-250 million, asked for $287 million. New York, with a $831 million request, asked for $131 million more than their $350-700 million suggested amount. Top prize goes to Florida, whose $1.1 billion ask was $400 million above their budget range. All told, these states requested $6.5 billion, or more than $2 billion more than the entire RTT fund.

It’s understood reform efforts cost money to enact over the long haul—reason to be even more skeptical of RTT, since this $4.3 billion is just a drop in the $64 billion federal education bucket. But in the face of these extraordinarily high ask amounts and worrisome comments from state politicians, it’s hard not to believe this is simply another overly ambitious and ill-timed reform effort that starts strong but lacks proper oversight.

The underlying fear is, in the face of massive budget shortfalls, winning states will use RTT money to plug budget holes instead of investing in promised reforms. This worry is only exacerbated by requirements under the brand-new health insurance bill requiring states to maintain current Medicaid and children’s health insurance levels, potentially making spending cuts in education far more likely. As the RTT round-one winners are announced and states begin to enter the second round of applications, the Department of Education would be wise to stop and consider states’ motives.

bones.

What is love?

I can’t put it to words.

But my pen on the paper knows.

It can’t help but write of love.

Can you feel love?

These bones of mine are stiff.

But I know these bones were made to love.

When love comes, my bones will know.

They’ll crackle and tighten.

But wait. Deep sigh. Exhale.

Love brings rest.

Can you learn love?

I’ve read all about it.

My mind is full of Jane Austen, Shakespeare and Rumi.

When love comes, my mind will race.

It’ll imagine and muse and wonder.

But wait. Deep sigh. Exhale.

Love brings simplicity.

What is love?
Rest. Simplicity.

Sounds like His love.

snowpocalypse 2010

Friday morning's local Washington Post homepage read: "Awaiting Snowmaggedon" http://bit.ly/bsFoVL. And we survived Snowpolalyspse/Snowmaggedon/Snowtorious BIG 2010! This storm ended up being the 3rd largest in the history of DC.  After 28 straight hours of 26 inches of snow, we finally got out of the house and played! We went sledding on the Capitol lawn, walked to our favorite coffee shop and just enjoyed a sunny, post-blizzard morning.

dual degree

Columbia University and Wits University of South Africa just announced a dual degree program with both universities schools of journalism. The degree "reflects the global nature of journalism in the 21st century." Students spend a year in Johannesburg and a year in New York studying advanced journalism. A journ program in two of my favorite places? Too good be true! Something to add to "maybe one day" list...

http://www.mediaclubsouthafrica.co.za/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=1504:dual-degrees-from-wits-columbia&catid=49:medianews&Itemid=113